The Fever...

I seem to have caught a fever. I have been getting it every couple months, since January of 2004. It drives me crazy and for days and weeks on end, it is all I can think about. I am praying that the fever passes quickly and I am able to move on soon. Or I might just go and make a crazy choice. I hate when I just dive in and do things before it is really time. Right now it is not time, so I have no business having these thoughts and feelings. I need to banish them and move forward, but it is so easy to just look back and wish and want and hope and then just do. I just did before and it was great, but things are more complicated now. GRRR! To have things less complicated and be able to just make the choice would be such a joy. But I need to STOP IT and let some more time pass!