It is amazing to me how many people have suffered this kind of loss and never said anything about it. How sad that there is this whole community of people that are suffering and not talking about their losses. The first time I have ever heard about some of these losses is after they heard that I lost Peanut. It breaks my heart to think about all of the people that are walking around missing their little ones.
Am I going to turn into one of these ladies? Coming up to a grieving young mom to tell them that I understand. I don't want to just go on.... but how can I not?
Please God,
Help us as a family find a balance between all consuming loss and just moving on and never speaking of that hope that was once there again.
Amen
This week we are going to start putting together a memory box for the little time we had with Peanut. It is my prayer that this is the only time we have to put together anything like this. We found a box shaped like a book and are going to decorate it in a combination of baby book and circus theme. We are planning to fill it with my positive pregnancy tests (I am so glad I saved them), the sonogram pictures, the letters I had written Peanut and a flower from the arrangement my parents sent.
I couldn't bear to be home much this week. While we were out and about, we found a baby peanut ornament. Thank you, Shopko for choosing to include that ornament. Andrew and I broke down right there in the store isle... We must have been quite the sight, holding each other and crying over an ornament. I am so thankful for God sending us something to hold onto and treasure.We will be putting this little ornament in the box as well.
I hope that working on this project as a family will help us all grieve this loss.
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